Stevie Nicks is a genius. Rumours by Fleetwood Mac captures my feelings perfectly, and suddenly everything is better. 

But listen carefully to the sound
Of your loneliness
Like a heartbeat, drives you mad
In the stillness of remembering 
What you had, And what you lost
And what you had, And what you lost

I’m not a princess, this ain’t a fairy tale
I’m not the one you’ll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell

So I’ll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep

And I’ll feel you forget me like I use to feel you breathe

And I’ll keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are

And I know it’s long gone, and there was nothing else I could do
And I forget about you long enough to forget why I needed to

Words are the friends that never tire of your grief, sadness and loneliness. 

Sometimes I feel I have exhausted the patience of everyone around me. 

I wish for that ability to speak out, and not fear heartbreak.